The Last 6 Months

Well here we are, it's November 22 and I haven't written a note in 6 months!! A lot has been happening for our little trio. Let's start with the most important of all...

WE'RE GETTING MARRIED IN 39 DAYS!!

Yep, Trevor proposed...I know everyone was thinking or may still be thinking... FINALLY!! We were in Las Vegas for his sister's wedding and he popped the questions at the Mandalay Bay Aquarium. I was a lot of fun. Well the ring pictured was actually ring #2 (my hand is on the left, Michaela's is on the right...yep we are both getting married within 3 months of each other!!!!), but after 6 months of fighting with the jewelry designer they finally got it right! New Year's Eve will be the day we say "I Do!" It's coming up quick!

So as I just said we were in Las Vegas in July celebrating Tara & Casey's nuptials. It was sweltering and there was a lot of work to do. But it was definitely one of the best weddings I 've ever been to. Ethan was the ring bearer, he did such a good job walking down the aisle. I cannot be responisble for the rock throwing that took place once he made it to the altar though!!

Trevor turned 28 in August. We had a super fun Kickball party in the park for him. I unfortunately do not have any pictures of this milestone event!! He will be so mad knowing that I just announced to everyone that he's 28!! Oops, I just did it again!!!

September we took engagement pictures...here's just a sneak peak (I know everyone has seen these since they were in the invitations, but just indulge my catch-up blog!)

Ethan's 2nd birthday party was here and gone. Halloween came and went before I could even blink. Ethan was Mickey Mouse for Halloween, I was Daisy Duck and Trevor was Goofy. Ethan hated his costume unfortunately and wouldn't leave it on for us to take pictures.

And now it is November, the time of the year to acknowledge all that you are thankful for. I am thankful for so many things: Trevor, Ethan, my family & friends, my job, that I am able to give to those who do not have. The list is long. Hopefully I can remember to update this more often as there are a lot of fun and exciting things coming up this week and this next month.

STAY TUNED!!!

Family Time

Ethan is sick. Even though it's not an ideal time for our family, it's times like these that make us what we are. If nothing more than Trevor and I working as a team. We become a medical team.

Trevor is definitely more calm when Ethan is sick than I am. My past blog about him being my calm is almost an understatement. I tend to get a little freaked out by fevers. Ethan's fever has given him a head-to-toe rash. No fun at all!

I was stunned to hear that it is common for fevers to create rashes and that once the fever breaks the rash should be gone...we'll see!

Although it's not the way that I wanted to spend "family time" today, Trevor and I have done really well at working as team. And if nothing else...Ethan becomes much more cuddly when he's not feeling well, which makes my heart a little happier!

Things I Take For Granted

They say distance makes the heart grow fonder, but what about if you just never see the person...does that count as distance? If so, then I have the love of a lifetime.

Trevor has been working so much lately. Baseball, Matheson, Repeat!! I have been very silent in my suffering, mostly because Trevor works so hard to provide for Ethan and I that I don't want to make things any harder than they are already. But after seeing how absolutely exhausted he was last night made me realize that I need to make every moment he has at home as special as possible. I know that he isn't living in another country or even city, but the distance between us feels just as great.

By the way, Ethan started at Pip Squeaks last week and LOVES it...I will write more on his first week of school later!

I am so happy that I finally figured out that I'm not depressed or angry or even lonely...since baseball started and Trevor's schedule changed this has been a big learning experience for me. I mean it's not like we're miles apart, but when in life do you get a break from each other without it being considered a break-up or separation?! Trevor's work schedule is only because he wants to provide for the family he loves, and I love, love, love that about him!

Let me just clarify one thing, he worked for the Ace's last summer and my world didn't fall apart then. But this year is different because he isn't working mornings at 24 Hour Fitness anymore, he works graveyard for Matheson Flight Extenders. He is such a hands-on dad and I wasn't sure how we were going to adjust to having opposite schedules. I remember being really depressed about the whole situation and just thinking to myself, "we'll never see you." It's funny because one day I just realized that I have always been self-sufficient and independent and not having him around to help with the bedtime routine wasn't going to be the end of the world...Ethan and I would survive! It's the sleeping alone thing that has been a hard pill to swallow. When it comes to love, I'm so vulnerable and dependent. I think Trev knows this but would never call me out on it!

So, I have decided I am going to combat these lonely night blues by diving into my home re-decorating and making myself some new clothes! Plus, not to mention that I have standing Thursday night date with Sara, Tracen and Logan. I cannot thank Sara enough for putting up with Ethan and I, those nights have been so fun and just the thing I have needed for SO long! I also intend to keep this blog as up-to-date as possible...even if it's just a picture!

As far as the re-decorating goes...I will keep try to post the transformation as it happens. I also intend to continue writing the book I started about a month ago, begin working out (I have about 10 pounds to lose before Tara's wedding in July), and have more time to myself to relax and read. Sara and I decided last night we're going to read "The Tenth Circle" by Jodi Picoult, I'm really excited about it! Although I miss Trevor terribly at night, I think the opposite schedules may be very positive. I think I realized last night that although I'm alone most nights, I am constructively alone and I'm becoming a better person, partner and mother because of it!

Now back to making the time we DO have together special. I just need to take 5 minutes each day and devote myself to planning a little family time and a little couple's time for the brief minutes we are all home at the same time. If that means Ethan and I color a picture for Daddy or write him a love note and give it to him in passing then so be it. I think we've realized that as a couple we are very fortunate to have these hiccups and be able to get through them as a unit! I think sometimes we took for granted all the little things that we don't get to experience as often.

Imagine if suddenly your partner was gone. No dinners together, no chance to enjoy the early mornings together, no kiss good night, no kiss good morning to start your day...I know this sounds really silly but these are things that I miss and I took for granted. Now Trevor and I are not separated by distance so I truly admire and look up to those people who have to experience this at a greater extent (Sara you're amazing!)

Human nature can be a greedy, ungrateful thing! I am so excited for our date tonight, and I have to say I'm look forward to the little things that we do when we watch movies. It's not that I ever stopped enjoying it or appreciating it, it's that it became a habit to NOT do them anymore. I have butterflies and am so so so excited to just reconnect with the love of my life!

It's funny how life is constantly handing out trials and tribulations, but in that happening we need to realize appreciate all the things we usually take for grated. I have every intention of embracing every moment whether good or bad and LEARNING from them.

Home Is My Haven

I am sitting here at work wishing I were at home! I love having a job, it makes me feel independent but at the same time when I'm here I miss Ethan and Trevor. I look forward to every minute I get to spend with them, even though most of the time I'm greatful when the morning commute is over and I can just sit at my desk. Weird how that works!

My home is where love lives. It's the place where I can wear sweat pants and a pony tail, not put any make up on and everyone there still thinks I'm cute. It's where I can sneak in to Ethan's room late at night and scoop him and just hold him.

My home is the place where I can sing into my hairbrush and dance as crazy and silly as I want. It's the place where Trevor and I get to just sit and connect with each other over and over. The smallest things happen there, but that is how love grows.

Home is my haven. It is where I get to become a master chef, a seamstress and an interior designer. I have created the home I have always dreamed of. Not because it's the biggest or cleanest or picture-perfect, but because I have the most amazing man and the most precious son. I love having a life outside the home, but my life inside of it is what defines me!

Mother's Day

"The Day I became a mother, my life changed. It is through that journey that I began to discover myself." - - BROOKE BURKE

I love that there is a national holiday to celebrate who else but MOMS! I think the best part of the whole day is to celebrate all we do...because everyone knows we are not appreciated the other 364 days in the year. Just Kidding!

I know this is about 4 days late, but I just have to say after celebrating my second Mother's Day this is one of my favorite days of the year. Being a mother is one of the most rewarding things I know. I know the commitment, the unconditional love we give and the million and half other things we do may go unrecognized, but our children are better for it! I hope when the efforts I make are recognized that I am humble and gracious towards my family, I love them SOOO much!

What a perfect time to say "thank you" to all of the moms out there who have helped and guided me. I have honestly learned more from other moms than any of those "How To" books. Whatever I'm going through it is comforting to know that one of you is either going through the same thing or has already been there. I have used so much of your advice, and I'm happy to say that it has worked!

Most importantly I need to thank my own mom. I have learned so much from her, the most important of which is unconditional love. She is my support and the one I count on in so many ways! When I had Ethan, I hoped to have the same kind of loving relationship with him. Children learn so much by example. I am so lucky to have been raised by such an amazing woman, who gave me the foundation to discovery my mothering instincts. We all know I didn't think I had them!!

I am so lucky to have a beautiful, healthy child. Being a mom is my greatest accomplishment ever! I hope everyone enjoyed their Mother's Day because you deserved it!!

Writer's Block

I've been stumped that past few days. I really wanted to be able to post a blog everyday or at least every other day, but for some reason I get so preoccupied. A lot has been going on, I just get so distracted I forget to keep everyone up-to-date! I did get some good this past weekend, which was nice after such a long week at work. I'm feeling like a new woman!

Ethan had so much fun playing with his cousins, Tracen and Logan last week! He walks around the house saying, "Tracen, Logey" it's very cute. I'm hoping Sara and I can get the boys together again soon!

Christina came over on Sunday to do the last part of her family study. We had 10 minutes to build whatever we wanted out of Ethan's giant Legos. Everytime I would add a block to our castle Trevor would take it off, lol! He said he was doing it on purpose, but I think I wasn't building the castle "right" so he had to fix everything I did! I hope Christina's observations of us didn't lead her to believe we are totally chaotic and dysfunctional! I think Ethan had fun building a "castle" with Daddy and Mommy, though.

This week is much more mellow than last week, we don't really have anything on the calendar. Tomorrow is our weekly Movie Night with Michaela and Charlie. I guess we better let the boys pick the movie this week since we've picked the last 2 movies and they've both been Chick Flicks! Oye, I just don't want to watch a movie that's going to give me nightmares!!

Until the next post, I'm going to keep my mind open and the creative juices flowing! I hope everyone else reading this does the same!

Stay-At-Home Weekend

I wanted to post this yesterday, but I ended up with the most obnoxious sinus headache!

Anyway...Friday night Trevor had to work at the Ace's so it was just Ethan and I. I made a version of Mexican potroast in the crockpot, I used turkey instead of beef because I'm lame and couldn't find a cheap enough potroast. At dinner time though, I decided it wasn't ready so I'm pretty sure Ethan ate PB&J! After I put him to bed, I literally passed out on the couch...I was so exhausted from playing nurse the last 2 days! When I woke up it was 10:45, I hadn't eaten and Trevor was on his way home! I scrambled to shred the turkey, but as I was shredding it for tacos I realized I was not eating it no matter what, for some reason shredding the turkey equated to shredding my forearm muscle...don't ask I was tired and in a weird mood! But Trevor liked the tacos and I did end up eating one the next day for lunch!

Ethan was sick Thursday, Friday and finally started to feel better Saturday, just in time for the nasty cold to hit me! I usually never catch anything from him, I mean as moms we really can't afford to be sick!

Saturday, we did leave the house long enough to buy Thomas a birthday present. I have to say Kohl's really disappointed me in their selection of clothing. I usually can walk into Kohl's with nothing and leave with like 20 things! We went to Thomas' 15th birthday party, I cannot believe he is 15! It was so much fun, Liz made cream cheese pies and Ethan got to play with all his older cousins. He loved it, he followed Daniel around like a little puppy, it was so so so cute!

Sunday was was such a lazy day. Ethan and I just played and played. We built a "castle" out of all of his giant legos, he colored pictures and we "drove" around in his Little Tykes car. My sister came over for dinner so she could interview us for one of her classes, why she chose Trevor and I as her case study I will never know, we are so boring!! I realized that I love and hate Sundays. I love them for the lazy way we spend the day, but I hate them because I know I will have to go to work the next day, lol.

I'm so excited for this week, tonight Jenica and I are going to Kohl's to get stuff to make more beach towel bags, Wednesday night is "Movie Night" with Michaela and Charlie, and then Thursday Ethan and I are going to go play with the Karrasch boys! This is going to be a great week...now if I could just shake this ear infection!!